What You Scared For?

Can't live your life in a shell

I found some humor at the end of a long stressful day. One of my favorite things to do is observe everybody’s facial expression while travelling on the subway. But this girl was too much, the subway doors open and an extremely sexy boy walks on, probably early 20’s – it’s clear he had just come back from working out (I need to find out what gym he goes to so I can run a mission) he sits down and puts his headphones in, I couldn’t help but stare him down, he caught me of course, and what?!

But this story isn’t about me, it’s about the girl who recognized him. There she was standing at the door of the subway because there were no seats available. When she saw him, she looked at him like “Oh my gosh, I know you” and you could see the hesitation to approach him, but I guess she decided not too, because she took one step forward and stopped. Then she started to fix herself, so here I’m thinking, okay this girl is going for it, she’s going to talk to him, but no her facial expressions were going buck wild. It went from a look of confusion – to a look of “okay I am going to approach him” – to staring at him so hard, waiting for him to recognize her. The funny thing is for the brief moment she wasn’t trying to make herself noticable and she was looking at her reflection, I was looking at him, and he was looking at her with a little smirk like “you’re that girl”. (I’m thinking they met at a club/bar – maybe through mutual friends.) So we’re probably on the subway for a good 5 minutes, the train stops, the seat beside him clears up, and this girl is literally turning in circles, shifting weight from leg to leg, fiddling with her hair, switching between a smirk and a look of indecisiveness. I’m sorry, I have to say it, home girl was actin’ a fool. Next stop was mine, I told myself if they both stay on, I will too, just to see how it plays out, but it turns out she was getting off at the same stop as me, but. . . he wasn’t.

Now I can’t even shake my head at this girl. I’ve been there, in that position where I could just do it, but over think it, the more you think the more room you give for doubt, and as soon as there is any sort of the doubt, the chances are, you are not going to go through with it. But for real, you’re going to let all these opportunities pass you up, for what, the fear of rejection? Sure it’s a scary thing, but if it doesn’t kill you, it only makes you stronger. Take the chance . . . just do it. Because if you don’t, someone else will.

I should really start listening to myself.

~ by doyouboo on June 23, 2010.

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