To Love or Not to Love: Fat Boys


I think it’s safe to say that I’m prejudiced. Yeah…I would go with that. But who isn’t? Hmmmm.

There’s that 90’s pop tune by “Vertical Horizon”

He’s everything you want
He’s everything you need
He’s everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why

There’s this guy friend of mine here. He’s reliable, he’s sweet, he’s hilariously funny: has me doubled over; i know i can count on him, and truth be told he ain’t even bad looking. I like him. I feel like he’s the kind of guy that would be good for me and support me; and I know he likes me. But unfortunately I can’t seem to get over his weight. OK shoot me now. I’m judgemental and shallow. So it’s out. So now you know. But who isn’t?

I keep asking myself if I should cross that line, but of course attraction is important isn’t it? He’s kinda cute; and damn Biggie had his fair share of dames back in the day, but then again he had money and swag. You know what bothers me most? What bothers me is that I ¬†probably care more about what OTHERS would think of us being together than what I think of him and I, or what we could be. I know that I’ll never go for it, that’s obvious here; I guess I’m just trying to reason where I stack my beliefs. You know there have been times when I haven’t been at my best, and wished that people would see beyond my outward appearance.

10 months ago I met this other guy; he approached me after we sang together. Lol, I practically ignored him, i wasn’t even slightly interested. He was/is cute and talented. But he was not on my radar. 10 months later I see him, he’s got this buzz (he’s on a TV show) he’s lost some weight and damn…how did I never notice he had blue eyes? Boys is KILLING it in the looks department. KILLING IT. Did i mention he’s a singer songwriter, pinaist and R&B crooner who has a regularly updated website and his sh** together? I guess that was my loss.

So I have judged and been judged. I should know better though. We can’t act like we live in a vacuum. We DO care what people think of us and our significant other. That’s part of the package isn’t it. I think mainly because they are a reflection of who we are; or rather what we think we’re worth. I wonder if I’ll ever get over that. I try to live my life not caring what other think.

But if I were living on an Island; all alone, with no-one to judge me; would I love up a fat boy.

I think I would.

Makes you think doesn’t it?

Y’all can’t judge me though, umma do me, and you can “Do You Boo”

~ by doyouboo on January 28, 2012.

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